There was just one thought that crossed her mind... once...twice...thrice... n then repeated itself... more than she could want...She knew what she wanted to do... She knew her heart wanted her to just tell him what those 10 digits were... But when certain boundaries need to be made...both the heart and the mind start to contemplate....
Decision making was her skill... She always knew what she wanted and she always got what she wanted... She was never unsure of anything she did, say or believe.... Then why was this seeming like the most important decision of her life? Giving him her number dint mean she was cheating...did it??? Her mind gave her a brilliant idea... atleast it seemed brilliant at that point of time...
Ask someone who knows him. They would tell her if she could trust him with her number!
Oh my God!! Why was it such a big deal? Wasn't it just a phone number. The thought confused her. Was she making a mountain out of a mole? Was it even as significant as a mole?
Out of nowhere... Mehak appeared... angel in disguise? She looked like an angel for sure...
"Perfect" she thought.
Mehak was the one girl who she saw this shy guy talking to on the very first day... They must definitely know each other...
Why was she still addressing him as "shy guy", she knew his name now... Well, she knew about it right from the start... she just preferred, moreover loved addressing him as someone she instantly recognized him as... That's one thing that she was great at.. making first impressions about people and holding it true for as long as she could...
In conversation with Mehak
Neha- Hey! U won't believe it, but you are just the person I needed to see and talk to!
Mehak- Really? What happened?
Neha- Well, its not that big a deal but you know that guy Kishlay right?
Mehak- Oh yes! Nice chap!
A sigh of relief, Neha thought. She dint sense any negativity in Mehak's tone and knew the answer to her question instantly.
Neha- So, he asked me for my number. I wasn't sure if its ok. I mean I dint know if I can trust him with it so...
Mehak- Well, you don't have to worry at all. He is a really nice guy. I've known him for three years.
Neha- Great! I was just unsure.
Mehak- By the way, he has a girlfriend.
Neha- Sure.
So they both had their own relationships to take care of.
Her first thought the moment Mehak left
People in relationships are allowed to have friends, aren't they?
"Well, we will be friends" she thought...
Her doubt, her unsurity and her anticipation were all over at the same time.
Before entering the classes the next day she saw him outside the class.
Hey! she said, you said you wanted my number right? Here it is. Feed it in your phone and give me a missed call so I can save yours.
He took a black flip motorola out of his pocket and typed in those ten digits.
Thanks, he said and smiled.
Thursday, 1 August 2013
Tuesday, 30 July 2013
Chapter 3- "Reality" check
The shaded path to the classes now stood like her mode of support to lead her to that room, it gave her comfort to know that the scorching sun wouldn't be able to kill her even if he wanted to... The warmth in the air kept growing stronger each day...But when she had that little gush of wind against her hair.. she felt no despair..
Settling in just felt truly right..
Going through the same charade every day felt light...
Parasites din't disturb her thoughts of feeling good....
Lectures din't demotivate her from any good...
Everything is now like she wanted college to be...
Every person she met fit in perfectly like they were meant to be....
She learnt to smile at this "shy guy" she thought she hated...
He smiled back at her... each time... like he really meant it...
A few glances of friendliness passed each day...
Sometimes a hello just found its way...
The month of August went by, like it had no reason to just stand by...
She was now feeling like she had heard the best news ever.... She was given a room where all her friends hovered...
She called and called till her balance was exhausted... The first call she made...
"Mummy, guess what???!!!!" Those exclamation marks will never justify how excited she was...
She finally got to move into a block where her friends stayed, a single bedded A/C room. That's all she wanted! That's all her poor mom fought for when she came to drop her daughter into an unknown world of terror. These little things made her so happy that she din't realise... she was about to be given a gift... A gift every girl asks for, dreams about and lives for... She just needed to wait to watch that this dreaded place was going to become her dream... This warmth in the air would give her what she always wanted... It wouldn't be long before she got it all... she just needed to be patient just like the readers (That's you all :-) )
Another regular day she thought...
Teacher's day... One celebration every student seemed totally excited about... not for the teacher's of course... but for the holiday you would invariably get... It might not be a general outlook but a personal opinion that is felt...
The classes seemed more lively, the moment every lecturer entered the room, 60 of them stood... like a bunch of excited teenagers... "HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY" and then clapped for no apparent reason... clapped until the lecturers knew they had nothing else to say except a polite "Thank you"
The class wasn't done yet... the 60 of them, again.
Kept screaming till they were heard, loud and clear "NO CLASS". The teacher's din't really have much of a choice other than to agree to the student's demand..But wasn't it teacher's day? Aren't things supposed to happen the way a teacher wants it to? (Who are we kidding? We won't let that happen!)
Since, things were actually going their way, they decided to make the teacher's happy. Someone suggested we show off our talents... Dance? Sing? Mimic someone?? Cliche' yet entertaining..
Some songs made her snuggle under the tables so she could laugh, some songs touched their heart, some took the stage like a superstar but no one could do what he did...
After a lot of pressure from the class, this shy guy made his appearance
He stood with his hands folded..stared at the floor like that's where he could look and after almost a minute of anticipation... he sang :-)
"Oh Sanam, Mohabbat ki kasam" by Lucky Ali
Slight smiles in between, shyness reached its extreme
He sang to win everyone's heart...
He smiled and believed in his own heart...
Every word in the song made sense...
Magical was his voice...that made the experience intense...
The moment he finished, she clapped, she beamed with her best smile and the entire class followed. She cheered him to make him feel confident, he looked at her and smiled to convey his thanks...
She wasn't someone who kept quiet after she heard something so good...
"So, you are a singer huh? Great voice, lovely song"
"Thank you"
And the end to a teacher's day!
Microbiology labs gave her a feel of what she was getting into with this course...That sweet yet unbearable smell from the bacterial cultures, that pressure cooker serving them as an autoclave that was never available... She always enjoyed her practical classes.... there was so much to do and no boring lecturer to listen to... streaking bacteria on a petri plate.... isolating cultures and giving them their right place...
A voice then distracted her... from her regular chores... she turned to look and then there was this music flow...
"I never really got a chance to introduce myself properly, Hello"
(Did he say hello??? So he knows how to start a conversation, she was excited but held herself back)
"Hi! I am Neha, Neha Singh, the girl from OU! "
(His smile was then the broadest of smiles she had seen, cute but she wasn't here to be fooled by it)
"I am Kishlay, I think u know that from all the introduction sessions in the classes."
(She clearly remembered each time she heard that name in the classes, it was so unique! she had never heard that name before, obviously she remembered but girls love playing hard to get)
"Oh! ya I must have heard of it"
(He knew she noticed but knew she had someone so din't push it)
"Can I get your phone number?"
(She wasn't sure, so she blurted what came to her lips first)
"I don't remember my number, just took a new sim. Can I give it to you tomorrow?"
(He looked a little disappointed, probably cursing himself for being too open after giving her those shy smiles)
"No problem" he said
Last set of smiles for the day were exchanged....
Anxiety reached its peak...
Excitement simply beamed...
Thoughts ran day in and day out....
She knew she needed someone to talk...
What was she going to say? Why did she even pretend she din't know her own number? No one is that stupid yet he smiled like he believed it. Too many thoughts to process for a day....
Sunday, 28 July 2013
Chapter 2- "ENCOUNTER"
Getting used to this new life wasn't feeling that difficult after all.... A few lovely people became a part of her life... She found friends... she found comfort in eating by herself... sleeping on that piece of iron and steel was coping with her body....That warm blanket her mom left her with gave her that comfort to fall into night's lap... find her dreams...where once again she felt alive...
She found solace in walking into that once dreaded room finding faces that smiled that she was here... Her friends seemed like her support systems... Was it too soon to find people she instantly could be friends with? But that was always what kept her alive... the fact that she made friends in a jiffy...
Friends found at first... friends found forever....
Friends giving in her the best... letting her be herself...
Happiness beaming across everyone's face...
As they walked her through this difficult phase...
Where was this shy guy?
Eyes looked around.... he was never really found....
Was it just her first day blues...
Could any of it actually be true?
Thoughts came and went...
Time flew and then... a whole new set of events...
A routine visit to the water cooler was a habit of life...
As soon as that one hour of some microbiology lecture freed us..
We found thirst to be our best friend...
That sound of chitter chatter with best mates...
And that glass of water was like it came straight from heaven
To justify one hour of listening to bacteria and viruses trying to ruin the mankind...
AND
That face appeared once again...
From the corner of her eye she saw him stand there
His usual shy smile now seemed like his best accessory
Eyes met and smiles exchanged
Was that all she was gonna get again? Another shy smile... like mystery would never be revealed... and smiles is all that would cause her thoughts to be healed....
He finally decided to come and break all that silence of almost weeks...
"So you are from Osmania University?"
(What???? No hello, no name?? No courtesy? she thought.... but her words failed her... )
"Yes, Why do u ask?"
No, I heard that OU is a great university, why would you leave that and come here??
(How does it matter to him? He isn't my dad!!! Why should he care??? )
No, I am not happy with the standard of students there and wanted some change..
Really??? Why?? You are the only student from OU that I know of... So the standard isn't good huh??
(Did he just offend her?? Right in the first conversation of their life??)
Wow! She said to herself... studying in a co-education.... So this is what her experience was going to be like??
She dint stop complaining.... the entire day.... she told almost everyone she knew.... that she hated this guy! She wiped his thought from her mind and said to herself... "I will make sure I never talk to him. every again!"
So much for the excitement...
so much for all the day dreaming...
so much for thinking she was finding another friend...
So much for believing his shy smile...
That truly covered his sly face...
She found solace in walking into that once dreaded room finding faces that smiled that she was here... Her friends seemed like her support systems... Was it too soon to find people she instantly could be friends with? But that was always what kept her alive... the fact that she made friends in a jiffy...
Friends found at first... friends found forever....
Friends giving in her the best... letting her be herself...
Happiness beaming across everyone's face...
As they walked her through this difficult phase...
Where was this shy guy?
Eyes looked around.... he was never really found....
Was it just her first day blues...
Could any of it actually be true?
Thoughts came and went...
Time flew and then... a whole new set of events...
A routine visit to the water cooler was a habit of life...
As soon as that one hour of some microbiology lecture freed us..
We found thirst to be our best friend...
That sound of chitter chatter with best mates...
And that glass of water was like it came straight from heaven
To justify one hour of listening to bacteria and viruses trying to ruin the mankind...
AND
That face appeared once again...
From the corner of her eye she saw him stand there
His usual shy smile now seemed like his best accessory
Eyes met and smiles exchanged
Was that all she was gonna get again? Another shy smile... like mystery would never be revealed... and smiles is all that would cause her thoughts to be healed....
He finally decided to come and break all that silence of almost weeks...
"So you are from Osmania University?"
(What???? No hello, no name?? No courtesy? she thought.... but her words failed her... )
"Yes, Why do u ask?"
No, I heard that OU is a great university, why would you leave that and come here??
(How does it matter to him? He isn't my dad!!! Why should he care??? )
No, I am not happy with the standard of students there and wanted some change..
Really??? Why?? You are the only student from OU that I know of... So the standard isn't good huh??
(Did he just offend her?? Right in the first conversation of their life??)
Wow! She said to herself... studying in a co-education.... So this is what her experience was going to be like??
She dint stop complaining.... the entire day.... she told almost everyone she knew.... that she hated this guy! She wiped his thought from her mind and said to herself... "I will make sure I never talk to him. every again!"
So much for the excitement...
so much for all the day dreaming...
so much for thinking she was finding another friend...
So much for believing his shy smile...
That truly covered his sly face...
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